Rosie Bennell

I love Rosie Bennell

I always have. As soon as I saw her for the first time, I knew I loved her. It was in the late 1970s when we began to work with each other a little. She never knew this but I managed to obtain her home phone number and, one day, I phoned just to hear her voice. She said "hello" a couple of times, I said nothing, so she hung up. But I had heard her.

In the early 1980s Rosie and I began to work together more. I was completely overwhelmed by the feelings I had for her. I really mean overwhelmed. Just before Easter 1982 I phoned her office number and asked if she would meet me on a bench in the town centre because I wanted to say something. She agreed.

We sat on the bench together and I told her I had fallen for her. My exact words were "I've fallen for you." I don't remember what her reaction was but she didn't slap my face. After a short conversation we both went back to work and I spent the whole of Easter thinking about her. Afterwards we continued to work together as normal except that now, she knew I loved her. She didn't love me but I think, from what she said, that I had told her my feelings about her at an 'opportune moment'.

I will say no more about it except that I love her still, half a lifetime later. There is no blame in permanently loving someone. I haven't seen anything of Rosie or heard from her since 1986 or 1987. Nor have I 'researched' or tried to discover anything about her life since then. I assume she is out there somewhere and that is all. I have no doubt she was very happily married and didn't need me at all. I wish her well.